Bears Banjo

Vent threads are sorta cool.
When I was in elementary school I was using the bathroom. I don't remember how old I was, but a woman had entered the bathroom. She started checking the stalls, I guess to see if anyone else was there. I didn't think much of it because I was a kid and she seemed nice. She walked up to me and started talking to me about school things, nothing really specific. She then told me that she had a present for me and that to see it we had to go into one of the stalls. At the time I didn't have friends and never received gifts, so I was excited! I followed her into the stall and she locked the door behind her.

I asked about the gift and she told me to take a seat on the toilet, so I did. She proceeded to unbutton my pants. At first I was worried, but she told me to calm down and not talk. She started touching my penis without my permission. It was uncomfortable, so I told her to stop. She hit me it the face and told me to stop talking.

She then proceeded to rape me. I don't remember how long it was or why she choose me, but she did horrible things to me. When she was finished with me she told me to stay in the stall and not speak to anyone about this, or else she would kill my family. She left and I sat in the stall for what feels like forever, hoping she would not hurt my family.

After that I never spoke to anyone about it out of fear, until yesterday when I was talking to a close friend about it. They laughed and said I should have been stronger, and that I should have fought more. I felt so hollow after they said that, like it was my fault for being raped. I told them to get out and spent the night crying. I ended up breaking my phone out of rage/sadness.

I don't know what to feel or who to turn to. I've tried therapy and nothing seems to work. I have no friends, two family members, and no drive in life. I'm stuck mentally in that bathroom stall. Its affected my life and relationships. I can't use public restrooms, I don't trust being alone with women, and it has ruined the idea of sex for me. She stole my virginity in elementary school and I have nothing left.

I'm useless.

THE BEAR

Dumb Factoids
1. I'm deeply afraid of others and going outside
2. It is very hard for me to talk to others in reality or games
3. I have really big feet that constantly hit everything
4. I have a hard time watching a movie or playing a game twice
5. Birds scare me

I guess I need to vent.
I lost my dog a year after my father died of Diabetes. My dog died of an ear infection we couldn't cure. I saw both my father and my dog convulse and die in-front of me. I thought I was desensitized to death or gore, but seeing them die like that broke me. Its been really hard to recover both mentally, physically, and financially. We had set up a donation page for my father, but only received 20 dollars. That would be fine, but he not only left us in debt, he had done horrible things throughout his life that I really don't want to get into. I keep asking myself, why do I grieve for someone who never loved me, abused me verbally and physically, and ruined the lives of my family.
Yet I miss him.

Hello! How are you all doing?

I can't say I've 100% many games, but I do have a couple.

Ratchet & Clank – 2002
Ratchet & Clank: Up your Arsenal – 2004
Ratchet & Clank: Size Matters – 2006
Ratchet & Clank: Tools of Destruction
Secret Agent Clank – 2008 (Not very fun)
Ratchet & Clank: Quest for Booty – 2008
Ratchet & Clank: All 4 One – 2011
Ratchet & Clank – 2016 (WHY)

Kingdom Hearts Birth by Sleep
Kingdom Hearts 0.2: Birth by Sleep -- A Fragmentary Passage
Kingdom Hearts
Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories (Never touching it again)
Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days (My Childhood)
Kingdom Hearts 2
Kingdom Hearts: Re:coded ( Lost the game in a Walmart Parking lot)
Kingdom Hearts 3D: Dream Drop Distance
Kingdom Hearts 3 ( It gave me deep depression)

The Messanger 2018
A bunch of different Picross games

Streetpass games on 3DS including
1.Puzzle Swap
2.Find Mii
3.Find Mii 2
4.Mii Force
5.Flower Town
6.Monster Manor

Alien Trilogy PS1
Duke Nukem: Time to Kill (My first and only Duke Game)
Donkey Kong Country SNES 1, 2, and 3

Ape Escape 2 and 3 (Underrated gems!)
SoulCaliber 2, 3, and 6
Tekken 3, 4, and 5

Enter the Gungeon and Exit the Gungeon
Plants vs Zombies 1
Super Mario 3D Land and World

I might add more to the list if I can remember, but this is an interesting thread. Thank-You!

I usually don't post due to being so socially scared I cant even message people. That being said i sometimes get petty at spammers and trolls, so I post bait images on their profiles. Then I never respond.